omg why can't i forget THIS "GIRL"

Omg, yesterday night when i wanted to sleep, i dreamt i was talking to my good friends in my primary school which i ended up deleting them on my facebook, hotmail, blog,blah blah blah. Thats not the whole point. But then one of my friends told me if i liked a girl. I just liked this girl just because i was bored and i got nothing to dream of.......... Thats all........... nothing else lol.


Oh ya, i forgot to tell you my very very deep secret. It was when i was in America, Carlifonia,LA.(Los Angeles). OK the first night with my best friend from ACS(BARKER ROAD), his name is Scott Khoo. We talked about who we liked in our hotel room as me him, and his oldest brother Sean Khoo. I didn't say anything. But when we played Truth or Dare, the Pepsi bottle pointed at me so i could choose Truth or Dare. I had to choose truth as the Dare was to go around the hotel half naked.(only underwear allowed) Then Scott sabotage me sia!! He told me to say of who i liked. I told him it was his sister, but then he told me that it is impossible as i told him i hated his sister. ME AND MY STUPID MOUTH. So i told him it was this "GIRL". He then said "Oh Raymond(My nickname), is this girl pretty or not." I did not respond. I quickly turned on the tv, and OMG I WAS SO LUCKY. The show was Hannah Montana in disney channel!!! I told him to keep quiet as he knew that my favourite female artist is Miley Cyrus.(I know i'm sick but all my best friends know this only, but i wanna spread it out now as it is no longer that important to keep it as a secret.) On the second day of the vacation, i and his whole family went to The main street of LA. I saw ANGELINA JOLIE!!!! MAN SHE's HOT. Then we went to Universal Studio's!!!! I had so MUCH FUN. But the first part was quite gay. I and scott went to the haunted house where i forced to go.(He knew i was scared in there.) He kept saying that i would not dare to go in. But then i and him went in. Once I went in, OH MAN!! I HUGGED HIM AND moved. One of the part was where we had to climb the stairs, so i pulled his necked,(Mind you this GUY IS FREAKING MUSCULAR!!! HE plays RUGBY.) Yup, so when we went out of it, he kept saying that i as super Gay and i actually liked it!(I mean it......) Then he said if i did that to him infront of this "GIRL", that "GIRL" would freaking hate me.(That was like 4 months ago.)


On the third day,(Man this is like:ON THE THRID DAY HE ROSE AGAIN IN THE RESSURECTION OF THE DEAD!JESUS CHRIST). We went to DisneyLand. He gave me this Disneyland Souvenior and that i must give it to this "GIRL". But till now the souviner is still in my possession.(Too scared to give) I talked to much about America.(I promise i will talk more about it tomorrow.)


Ok now JAPAN.(i went there in DEC LAST year also but its only a two night stay there so i did not care as it is a transit. But i dreamt about this "GIRL" when i was half way sleeping. I felt that i could not dream about being Gay at all. I CANNOT DREAM ABOUT BEING GAY FROM last year JULY till this year APRIL. I still cannot dream about gaying i dunno why. But Japan is too boring to talk.


Lets talk about when i was in Australia. I went australia last year as well. I think around OCTOBER OR NOVEMBER. BAD MEMORY CANNOT REMEBER PROPERLY.>.< I went to my cousin's house to stay there for 15 days. They asked me on who i liked also. They told me who they liked too. They told me they like Krystal.(She's a model from Australia. She is seriously hot! You want prove go google her!! She was also the face in Need For Speed Carbon i think.) I got to tell them who i liked as their mother was the one who paid for everything to let me go Australia as my Mother was going to Korea for a while. Well, well me and my cousin played laser sports there and it was awesome!!!! Seriously!!!!!


Till now, i still cannot forget this "GIRL". I JUST DON'T KNOW WHY!! I cannot be GAY at all for quite a long time as long as that "GIRL" is in sight or in my HEAD. When i am with Faruq and the "GIRL" is not around i would still GAY HIM. I would. WELL GERALD IS MY GOOD FRIEND. I CANNOT GAY HIM AT ALL I DON'T KNOW WHY. Agassi told me that i should not be gay at all even though the "GIRL" is not around. But the truth is, Gay was my hobby since i left my Ang Mor Best Friend in Queenstown Primary School. I just became an Emo king now. Don't misunderstand. Sometimes i looked angry when i am following Matthew is just cause i tried to change my habit from Gay to Emo. Thats all, nothing bad rite??? Omg this "GIRL" is just impossible to get out of my mind. Why is gaying not fun anymore? WHAT SUPERPOWER DOES THIS "GIRL" HAVE!!! I WANT AN EXPLANATION!!!!! NOW TIME TO POST THIS FREAKING POST!!!!